Perfection

I have always been a perfectionist be it in my homework, drawings, handwriting (apparently it so neat and symmetrical that no one can read it), and the way I put and arrange things and etcetera etcetera. And I definitely have to admit that I am somewhat OCD. As I was reading a book titled “If I Really Wanted to Beat Stress I would…” given by a friend it hit me that one of biggest stressors was indeed my perfectionism. 

It was then that I realized I really needed to redirect my focus as it’s really wearing me out at this point of my life. I seriously thought of some ways to overcome this with some research done of course. So here’s what I came up with. Hope it helps other struggling perfectionist out there like me.

• Wanting perfection all the time can seriously cause things to end up unfinished or undone. And I often find myself some excuse to procrastinate because of it. So start by acknowledging something call good enough. Nothing is ever perfect so aim for good enough outcomes. Trust me you’ll see how much it helps.

• Recognize that nothing is perfect in this world!!!! Because in reality perfection will cause you more harm than good and adds extra stress that may affect your productivity and so on. Bring your expectations down.

• Do not ever compare your work to someone else’s work. As that my lead you to feeling inferior. Note that there is always someone else out there who is better than you. Be grateful for what you can do compare yourself to yourself to see how much you have improved.

• Understand that you are only human so is everyone else around you. Everything and everybody are not flawless. So accept the fact that sometimes things would go wrong and not the way we want it to.

• Realize that there is always room for improvement but things can NEVER be perfect. Consequently know that you would never be rejected because you are not perfect. Life is never perfect and some imperfections are vital for the whole so deal with it.

“People throw away what they could have by insisting on perfection, which they cannot have, and looking for it where they will never find it.”

Edith Schaeffer

can't believe I'm actually blogging about perfection at this hour. ZzzzZ

xoxo,

-R- 

If it is Your will, show me a sign. Tired of uncertainty and doubts. I need an absolute answer so that I can remain in tranquility..  

My life for the past few weeks had been disastrous. My schedule were packed like crazy, I had ongoing due dates along with my FYP problems, I have my ministry and other responsibilities. Everything was just crazy and stressful. I was literally a walking zombie. I am always late, restless, tired, and life just felt aimless. I was just drained out. However, in the midst of all those dilemmas and time of desperation (I would not go into details) it was a breath of fresh air and a revival from God.

God had been so real to me in really weird and random ways and trust me when I say random it is really random. It was as if the world is evolving around me and not the other way round. Everything eventually falls into place, timing was right and everything was just perfect. It really reminds me that God always intervenes and He cares about every little thing that happens in our lives. This new encounter really challenges me to continue to strive on and trust him. I am really exhausted mentally, physically but I’m spiritually hype and fire up. Anyway here is some of the random stuff that had happened.

It started with me hearing a still small voice that said, “Wait at the bus at your place the bus would come” (I obviously thought it was just a gut feeling or just another coincident). Most of the time the bus would miss the bus stop at my place and stop at the condominium’s bus stop near my place so I’ll usually walk over (if you know where I stay). Nevertheless, that particular day I had this gut feeling me telling me that I should not walk over. Being me, I was realistic, so I ignored and went across the road. And to my surprise the bus came out from the bus stop at me place so I came back across the road and hop on. It went on for several weeks and I was nearly never late.

Something funny happened as well. While I was in the lrt one day, there’s this smelly dude who came in from dunno where. And FYI I am very sensitive towards smell. So I was like oh God help. And pooooooffffff all of a sudden I smell my favorite men’s perfume Hugo Boss for men. When I look to see where the smell was coming from, that random guy walked in straight towards me and stood right in front of me. And instantly the smelly smell was drowned by his perfume. I was like wow God can be so specific and ironic at the same time.

Anyway, to cut the long story short (kinda lazy to type all that had happened), everything that happened throughout the past few weeks was just awesome. Here's some of the weird stuff that happened:

• People randomly paying for my food bills for a few times (really thought I was being stalked or something)

• Being really calm in situations where I would usually flare and get worked up

• Song lyrics randomly speaking to me

• Devotional passages that hits me right in the face

• People who surprisingly encourage me with just a text

• Etcetera

my train of thoughts are just all over now. can't think of a conclusion yet. anyway will continue soon. will end with this now: "Challenge tones your intuition and imagination, exercises your desire, puts mass on your positive beliefs, trims your fears...."

xoxo,

-R-

I have always been an organized freak. I always prepare in advance for everything so that things would work out perfectly. Moreover, I have always managed my time properly. I never really have the time to chill and be lazy or unproductive. Time management is never an issue (at times yes but not lately nor now). But apparently I’m still struggling to cope with my studies and responsibilities due to the crazy whacked up due dates I have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UOG!!!! I’m reaching my limits!!! Losing it soon!!!




GOD I really need help…..



-R-

i'm exhausted!!!!!!!!!!! argh......... need sleep.... need a break... need to d-stress.........

Tell Me Why

I find this song rather touching. Hope it touches you as well :) Enjoy!!!